I had planned to continue posting daily here, but I don’t think I’ll keep that pressure on myself, after all. I think posting here daily might be too much for me, right now at least. I’d like to write daily, but without the pressure to publish daily.
I’m nearing the end of my 100 day challenge, and floundering this close to the end is frustrating, but I’m trying to give myself grace. I posted daily through sickness, flu, bronchitis, migraines… The end of last year and the beginning of this one were pretty rough. But when depression started creeping in, it became easier to put off till late, skip, or forget about posting altogether.
I’m not giving up. I’m sad that I didn’t make it 100 days without missing my midnight deadline, and I’m sad that I have missed more toward the end of this challenge, but I’m proud of myself for picking up where I left off, writing the make up posts, catching up.
I started this 100 day challenge to help me with consistency, but I think it’s turned into a challenge to help me become more resilient.